If you’re a Christian, you know that Lent begins today. It is a time marked by sacrifice and charity. It ends with that awesome chocolate bunny holiday (I kid!). Given that I work for a religious organization and am also somewhat faithful, I usually do observe Lent, just in my own way.
I’m not really big on giving up something I really enjoy because I know that in a time of weakness, I’ll fail miserably at it (as I illustrated a couple of years ago by baking MORE than once).
So this year, I want to take a negative out of my life and encourage positive. Reasonable, yes?
So I’m giving up the hatred of my body and the negative self talk that comes with it. Yes, despite me admitting to being comfortable in my own skin in the past, that ugly little demon has reared its head again. It seems to be born out of the fact that I can’t seem to lose any weight AND I just keeping putting MORE on the harder that I try to lose it. Nice, eh?
But that’s not cool. I need to cut myself some slack.
For example, I did a pretty good job on the weekend, completing yet another half marathon in a fairly decent time for a recreational runner. I was happy because I had a plan, executed it successfully and had no ill after affects.
Well, until I got my race photos.
All that I see are a double chin, belly pooch and tree trunk legs.
What. Is. Wrong. With. Me?!
Most people don’t get out of bed before noon on a Sunday and there I was running 21k. A lot of people never had the courage to start running, but I did almost five years ago. Many don’t listen to their doctor’s advice to try diet and exercise first before attacking a minor health problem with a myriad of drugs.
I need to see the strength, courage and determination that lies beneath my skin in this photo. These are things that have changed me for the better over the years. I need to NOT focus on the things I deem to be imperfections as those things are in my control and I can change if I don’t get hung up on the negative.
So I’m giving up my bad attitude, focusing on the great things I have achieved and can still achieve and loving the package that they come in.
Big or small, I’m capable of great things.