Despite how I come across in type, I’m a HUGE scaredy cat. I don’t make friends easily, I’m the one who will try to blend into the background and I never make the first move.
Add to that my fear of failure, I give up on things WAY too easily. That’s probably why I was overweight for so long because I was just too afraid of not being successful at it and looking like a fool.
But I’ve never been that way with running. Yes, there may have been one or two runs recently where I felt too ill to continue, but it took me awhile to “talk myself down” and stop.
Last night was a prime example of me thinking that I’d never live it down nor would I be able to forgive myself if I didn’t finish my 10k tempo run with the marathon clinic. A run that was easy for me two weeks ago felt like agony last night. I felt like I was going to be sick with every foot fall, as my stomach lurched up and down as the rest of my body moved forward. Why I didn’t stop was a matter of stupid pride… and just plain stupidity.
I managed to finish just a minute slower than two weeks prior but felt like it was the slowest run in the world.
But it made me wonder: Why is it that I refuse to quit on a run, but I’m contemplating giving up on a program to help me lose weight?
See, I’ve been following the new POINTS PLUS program on Weight Watchers since the first week of December and have yet to have any positive results. In fact, after two months, I am EXACTLY the same weight that I started at.
So why should I bother? It’s frustrating me, making me crazy (unnecessarily) and I’m wasting money on something that isn’t working for me.
And so many others from what I’m reading.
Why won’t I give up?
Would you? Have you (if following WW)? What would be your next plan of attack?