I had a video but I realized how whiny, stupid and hypocritical it was, so I got rid of it.
Saturday was kind of an important day…and I tried to act like nothing was special about it.
Four years ago on the 17th of July, I reached my Weight Watchers goal of 145lbs.
Sadly, I am no longer that weight.
Last year I made a video (which is of horrible quality), stating that I was committed to reaching that goal again!
But another year has gone by, I went up about 10 more pounds after it, and am now 10lbs away from that goal.
What the heck was I doing all year?
It took me six months to lose 19lbs. Granted, I haven’t been focused all of this time and could have easily lost all of it had I had my head in the game. But life happens, things get in the way and 19lbs is something to be proud of.
But Saturday just didn’t matter to me. I knew I wasn’t going to be 145lbs when I woke up that day, but I did hope for something even greater.
As many of you may know, my adorable little dad has been attending Weight Watchers meetings for quite some time. He’s determined NOT to count points or track (he equates it to teaching an old dog new tricks), but was just a few ounces away from his 10 per cent and one-derland when I saw him last week. Saturday is his regular meeting day and I had hoped that his weigh-in would be amazing, he’d get that key ring and we could celebrate the day for new reasons.
Unfortunately he had to work that day, and didn’t get to attend his meeting. So I left the day as just another, not wanting to know how much I weigh or even caring about what I ate.
But I’m changing that for the next month. See, my 31st birthday is on August 19th and I have decided to take the batteries OUT of the digital devil, hide it in the closet and not take it out again until that day. And until then, I’m going to be super conscious of what I’m eating and tracking like a mofo.
Back to basics for this girl.
I’m happy to be a healthy weight again, but I’d be happier if I REALLY focused on staying healthy and only putting healthy things in my body.
So, I’ll be paying more attention to that and less on the scale. I’m hoping that by ignoring it and focusing on me, the pounds will go away and a healthy attitude will be here to stay.
And maybe I’ll even let the digital devil stay, as long as he promises to play nicely. After all, it will be my birthday :)