Looking Back and Moving Forward
Published by marie on 1/4/09 at 10:13 AMI know I'm late to the party but there were circumstances beyond my control.
I'm taking things day by day but am TRULY still a mess on the inside.
But it's the time of year where people reevaluate life; look at what they've done well and where they can make improvements.
It's also time to see how I did with last year's resolutions.
So in short, still in debt, crappy at journaling, gained weight back, still no license and I dress like a slob on Fridays.
But I did move out on my own, found a new job, read a lot more (thanks to commuting) and gained a lot of independence (and perspective).
This year I have one goal.
I need to get back to goal.
This time it will be a slower process, I'm sure. I'm in such a rut that I need to heal myself first before I can lick the weight loss thing....again.
But it will come, I am sure.
I have a whole year, after all :)
Labels: resolutions, weight loss, Weight Watchers
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It started as a hunt for migraine information. You and I share a lot of the same triggers and I wanted to re-read what you had written.
and then as long as I was there - I re-read all sorts of posts and really enjoyed them.
I found them very motivating.
And in reading, I also realized that I have gotten sloppy about reexamining my exercise in maintenance.
In my loss mode - I reevaluated every quarter.
Now, not so much.
I am still doing exercise - but I stopped looking at what my invested time was actually doing for me.
In other words -
am I just moving my body through the air? -
or am I really working?
so that is my new year's perspective - looking at my classes and activities and making better choices this quarter.
and I wrote a note to myself to pop up as a blog posting in March - to look again - what do I want?, what am I doing?, is what I am doing getting me what I want?
One of my favorite quotes:
"A journey of a thousand miles starts in front of your feet."
Lao-tzo Father of Taoism
ONWARD and UPWARD
(or downward, depending on which way you want to look at it)
I can't think of a better time for you to re-evaluate...take some time to focus on YOU!!!
You have accomplished SO much this year and I am happy to see that you aren't just tossing that aside!!
Take time, you CAN do it, and you have a lot of people alongside you who are here to support you!
You have had a horrible loss but time will heal. It gets easier. What I have found with myself is that the pain is still there and can move myself to tears real fast but it is just not at the forefront of my thoughts. I guess what I'm trying to say (not very good at writing like you) is to feel the pain. Feel it and learn from it. And take the time. Just b/c everyone thinks you should be okay doesn't mean it is wrong that you aren't.
umm, so I rambled and don't really know how to end it. I guess with a bug hug! *hugs*
good luck!!
I'm starting to realize that it's not just about weight loss. It's simply about being happy with ones self.