5/23/08

I gots mad skillz

So why am I so scurred? Seriously - my job involves writing and yet I sit there gripped with fear when faced with writing a news release, correspondence letter or proofing a briefing. What the hell is wrong with me? You wouldn't know it from my writing here, I know, as I rarely care about my spelling, grammar or whether the sentences ever make sense, but lord tundering jaysus does it take me 10 years to write a paragraph that I'm afraid to turn into that powers that be to scrutinize when it comes to work. Yesterday though, I was fearless. Not sure why. And I think I overshot my mark. Apparently in government you shouldn't do things *too* quickly as it might arouse suspicions and raise expectations. Yeah - I missed that memo. It caused me to be busier than can be today, which I hate, then up goes the blood pressure and headache ensues. *sigh* But do you ever get gripped with fear and set your self up for failure because you're afraid of rejection, even though you KNOW you have the skills to back it up? Is this a common thing? Thoughts? Opinions? Experiences?

6 comments:

Randi said...

Um yes. That is me to a T. I am damn good at my job, I am damn smart and very competent. Yet I stress and panic everytime I'm supposed to do anything but copy and paste.

I frankly get nervous anytime my phone rings and I have to talk to somebody about something work related. I spend 3 times as long as necessary going over all my reports, memos and even emails to my boss or client. If I think somebody else made a mistake I won't say it because I don't want to stick my neck out incase it's something I'm screwed up about, even when I'm sure I'm not.

I got mad skillz too, but I got mad issues worse.

Thom said...

I have little concern about my writing skills... but still, my hand quivers over the "send" button when I am about to transmit the plethora of financial reports and documents for our board of directors each month. There is some basis for my fear... how much do you hate writing "attached is the following..." and forget to attach? Humor only goes so far with the humorless ("OK, now I will actually attach the documents")... and so my hand twitches with nervous antici....
pation.

TrixieBelden said...

yep, i know that well. and i keep apologizing for asking questions. what's up with that? i'm new, shouldn't i ask questions? now that my friend at work pointed it out, i'm trying to stop. i'm so embarrassed.

Angie All The Way said...

You didn't get that memo?? lol I don't work in government, but I've heard many similar experiences. You strike me as the type of person who wants to and needs to feel challenged by your work and I imagine that would get frustrating when you want to step it up at work and then the avalanche comes rolling.

Blue Ice Dave said...

Having been in a position where I was responsible for all communications materials and website content for a small non-profit, I understand the angst of a paragraph all to well. Wordsmithing can paralyze; parsing can lead to ulcers. I sometimes found my best work is done off-the-cuff.

Sara said...

This doesn't happen to much with my job.

But in other areas of my life, constantly.

Hell before every basketball game to this day my IBS acts up like a mofo b/c I'm so nervous I'm going to suck. And I've been playing since Gr 4, like come on now. Actually just talking about it right now is getting me nervous for Wed game. Damn it.

But you are awesome and should never be fearful!!

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