8/30/07

"Now I'm standin' here holdin' on to the past"

I'm totally borrowing Krissie's thing here - and a Mary J lyric (I ♥ her) I'm feeling all nostalgic and sappy today. Perhaps it has to do with the cool breeze and the overcast skies - summer seems to be fading away (which I am TOTALLY cool with - bring on falls colours and the humungo sweaters, i say!), but I've been in not so much a funk, but a sighing daze for the last couple of days. I actually think it has to do with me seeing a guy from my past drive by me on the street the other day. Of course, he didn't recognize me as last time he kissed me good-bye was just before I started weight watchers and this time I was decked out in running gear and quite a few sizes smaller. But it made me sad because he looked older, balding and a bit bloated for a 26 year-old and I remember that the only thing that stood in the way of us being together was a fear of ruining a friendship with a mutual friend - someone I know I don't associate with anymore and I'm fairly certain he doesn't either. He consumed my thoughts for most of my run...until a song came on that reminded me of another guy I had lost touch with. He was oodles of fun and had similar tastes in music...and an appreciation for 90s Canadian alternative that won me over. But I'm not consumed so much about the boys here...it's more about how the music made me travel back to times and places, remembering people and fun times. So I've decided to play a little iPod roulette and see where else it can take me...
  • Pretty Noose - Soundgarden - HIGH SCHOOL!!! and again, it makes me think of boys (sheesh, what is wrong with me). but it does make me thinking of riding around in cat's car to field hockey games, eating whoppers and talking about boys. good times.
  • Sometimes (I wish) - City & Colour - Last year I disappeared for a weekend and took a little train trip without telling anyone. this entire album makes me think of the train ride from Toronto to Montreal and how liberating it is to just up and leave to discover other places on your own.
  • The Other Man - Sloan - makes me think of my brother Stephen. He loves this song. I have no clue why, but anytime I hear it, he's the first person I think of.
  • Best of You - Foo Fighters - My birthday 2005 - BEST GIFT EVER! jeep got us tickets to see them live at the amphitheatre. Loved every second of it - except the goose crap everywhere.
  • Crisis - Alexisonfire - running in vancouver. I bought this album before my trip there last fall and ran every morning around kitsilano listening to mostly these songs. nothing better than loud, screamy music and beautiful mountains.
  • Black - Pearl Jam - Emily and Joel - two people I went to elementary school with. I have no clue why, but they're lovely people and I always associate the two together...also makes me think of rain against the windows of subway cars as they go from vic park station to kennedy, the ride i had to take daily to high school.
  • Enya - Age of Electric - this was my "make the pain go away" song in my teenage years. Anytime i felt like crap, this song made me feel a bit better. "hurt won't live forever."
  • Sabotage - Beastie Boys - I have visions of my brothers jumping around with couch cushions. I have no clue why.
  • Lap Dance - N.E.R.D - didn't we get freaked out about mom hearing this, jeep?
  • Wait & Bleed - Slipknot - i have no clue what it is about this song, but it pumps me up beyond belief (it's even my power song for Nike+). Also makes me think of my first time on a plane, how nervous I was and how I kept listening to these songs over and over and over again to calm me down. Weird that crazy music makes me calm, eh?

11 comments:

CaRoLyN said...

Isn't it crazy how a song can bring back a million memories. You can almost place yourself in that exact moment. Sounds like many of your memories are happy. :)

Sara said...

Songs bring back so many memories for me too.

Saddest line ever in a song:
"I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll you be a sun in somebody else's sky, buty why, why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine" - Black

My roommate and I used to cry to this line every time we heard it, which was everyday since we listend to Live on 2 Legs (Pearl Jam) everyday! I'm getting teary eyed just thinking about it. Sigh.

Diet Coke and Zingers said...

I don't think ANYONE could love Sabotage as much as I do! By the way I love your profile pic... hilarious.

Crabby McSlacker said...

Great post.

I like to take music around on my iPod when I'm out walking, especially when traveling. So I love it when an unexpected song comes on shuffle and it totally takes me back to a particular place. There's a Shawn Colvin song that puts me in the East Village, a Jann Arden that's Halifax, and a Fat Boy Slim that weirdly enough forever remains associated with the Retirment Community where my mother-in-law lives.

Shirls said...

facebook is helping me go back in time, so many from highschool sharing memories, so much fun

Jen said...

Oooh do I hear you...

I have one song that an ex used to love and every time I hear it I want to break something (the asshole put me through a lot)...so that one doesn't exactly bring back good memories (the song? Du Hast - Ramstein, in case you are curious!)

Now I am in a happy place right now thinking about some good "song-related" memories...

it sucks about the balding guy though...some memories are easier to forget...

Natalie said...

How fun - music is so powerful that way!

There are certain songs from the 80s that remind me of listening to the radio at the beach with my family. Such good memories!

Anonymous said...

You forgot your all time favorite
"Did you happen to see the most beautiful girl"
com'on tell everyone, it makes you think of ..... com'on

Mojo

Angie All The Way said...

Aw Marie, what a sweet post! I get that way with music too AND scents. If I smell a certain perfume or hairspray it takes me back to that time in my life. For some reason nastalgia always is a downer even if you remember the good.

Whether the guy recognized you or not, maybe you wouldn't have been the cute girl running down the street if you two didn't part ways.

Facebook is the devil with old BF's and people all of a sudden rearing their faces and sending messages!

Spidey said...

Good songs! I was able to see Soundgarden opening for Guns N Roses back in 1991. Seeing an ex must be a bit odd, especially out of the blue like that.

marie said...

mojo - i'm lost :( what does that mean?

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