3/5/07

When life kicks you in the pants...

chocolate arrives on your desk without you asking. I had an AWESOME weekend up until last night. Spent time with my nieces, my brother...then I was told some hurtful things that I don't know if I'll recover from. Saying sorry and apologizing for things done and said in the past is one thing, but to know that people felt a certain way about you, continued on as if nothing was wrong and let them fester underneath the surface.... bah. I have all of these negative words swimming around my head today that were said to me and my eyes keep pooling as a result. The funny thing is, I'm realizing I'm really an emotional non-eater. I had no desire to eat last night and none really this morning. The toblerone sitting on my desk (left out of guilt by Li in my office who has left for Malaysia for a month, which will make my life more difficult in the next coming weeks), although half white chocolate (which is my favourite), is so not appealing to me either. I've tried so hard to be positive in the past few months, but it's hard to change and be a better person when people still judge you based on old attitudes. I know I've been guilty of it too and saying it is hypocritical, but I just never thought the people who I thought had my back all of the time would subject me to such a harsh firing squad.

13 comments:

Mandy said...

Hon I'm sorry you had hurtful things said to you!!! :( That sux! It sounds like a lot of people are having a bad Monday.... and I send hugs to all of you!!!

Good for you for being a non-emotional eater though. I've never heard of that! I honestly wish I had that! Good for you for not eating the chocolate.

I hope your day picks up hon.....

NattyMcGoo said...

That does not sound like a fun night :( I'm very impressed that you're not an emotional eater. Have you always been this way or is this something that weight watchers has taught you over time?

I hope your day turns around - it usually does. Here's hoping the sun shines down on you today and makes you feel warm and fuzzy :)

Sarah said...

Marie,

I hope everything works out for you. Good for you for not eating the chocolate, but make sure you take care of yourself.

(((HUGS)))

Sarah

Pam, the belly dancing queen said...

When you've had time to think things through, sort out what was said THEN evaluate the situation. Were these things said to you for the sole purpose of hurting you? Why were you told these things? Maybe having those answers will help you decide how to deal with it.
BTW--you have WAY more control than me--I'd have eaten the damn toblerone......I don't even like them!

~paige~ said...

marie, that sucks. i hate when other people get me down with their negativity. i agree with the belly dancing queen though, good for you on not devouring the chocolate. i am the opposite of you. people hurt my feelings and then i eat my way around the kitchen. not good.
hang in there. i know you are a great chick, even if you don't like the leafs

Wheebs said...

***hugs!!*** sorry you're having such a hard time :(.

marie said...

thanks ladies :)

pam - it was NOT their intention to hurt me - that is NOT in their nature and i apologize for not making that clear earlier.

I just have a lot to think about after all of this...

FYI - i gave away the small chocolates and fruit chews from my desk - toblerone is still in a box.

Amuldoon said...

Girl... You're so much stronger then me. I would have been all over that chocolate like a fat kid on a smartie! :)

Sorry to hear that those close to you hurt you. Its amazing how much a little comment from someone you care about can sting so much.

You're an amazing woman, with so many good things in your life. Try to focus on the positive.... if all else fails, lace up the running shoes, listen to Rage Against the Machine and take it out on the pavement. Works like a charm for me!

*muah*

Angie All The Way said...

Oh I'm sorry that you are hurting. I hope that in time it won't sting as much once you've had a chance to heal from it and think about it when emotions aren't running so high.

Yeah, you do deserve credit for not touching the Toblerone.

jen said...

I can't believe that people who care about you would make you feel that way!! I mean, who says hurtful things like that and then just acts like nothing happened?? Grr.. People totally suck sometimes!! And I can't even imagine what they would've said because I think you look phenomenal!! So I can't help but think that maybe they're jealous of you.. I'm sure that doesn't make their words any less painful, but please, please don't doubt how awesome and beautiful you are! Btw, white toblerones are my favorite too.. ~tight hugs~ Want me to kick their butts for ya?? ;-)

Shirls said...

Moments like those are so gutt kicking hard, I feel your pain and I'm really sorry you had to experience anything that caused you pain in the first place.

and holy wow, impressed with the non eating crap when down thing, I'm really blown away by your determination!

meredi said...

Marie Marie Marie... I'm so sorry to see that you're hurting. You're such a sweetie and it sounds like you absolutely did not deserve this berating. :(

It reminds me of the time one of my online friends wrote me an email and told me, out of the blue, that he didn't find me interesting anymore and wasn't going to comment on my site ever again. It stung for days, and I'm sure it will take you some time to stop reeling from this too, but just focus on getting through day by day and each morning will be a little easier!

I hope you're able to patch things up with whomever it was who made the comments. *hugs* In the meantime, wow, good for you for resisting the junk food... but do make sure you nourish yourself with healthy stuff and a nice, long bath.

~♥ Amanda ♥~ said...

i'm so sorry that you're hurting {{{hugs}}}}
it's really hard to hear about things that were said about you, i've been there. it's hard to move on and look at that person the same after you know they said something about you. i give you credit for not turning to the chocolate bar, i would have!!! you are such a strong person and i love reading your blog, it inspires me. don't let what that person said make you doubt it!

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